| man i just cant help it that i dont feel the same way... i mean he is really sweet when he wants to be.. but it just wont work out....
see this is nicks xanga entry...
Yeah, no matter what goes on in life, it always hits me, I CANT BE TOTALLY HAPPY WITHOUT HER!!!!....all I do is make her sad, tick her off,etc... I harldy ever do sweet things for her (ever though we rnt goin out) like avenged sevenfold says, "I wish I could be the ONE"...I wish I was the one....even mah mom said she would LOVE for Jessica to be her daughter-in-law. She said that yesterday afternoon. I'de absolutely LOVE to spend mah whole life with her, i KNOW it would be so amazing, but she doesnt want that, she JUST wants nething BUT me, which is PERFECTLY understandable, I mean look what i've done to her, i've made her feel so horrible about herself, so y would she want a guy like me????....she wouldnt, and she doesnt. All of mah wrong doing have just turned around and slapped me right in the face so hard....its a reality check....in reality i'm a horrible person (hint: i've lost almost everything). I remember back in the day when I was actually AWESOME...everyone loved me for once, but now its completely opposite....i get sick to mah stomach think about all of this stuff...all i can say is JEssica, i'm SOOOOO sorry for what i have become, and for makin u doubt urself....u need someone better newayz....but regardless, i'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU, and i'll ALWAYS be here for you.
well i'm out, but i'll type more later....
 I LOVE YOU JESSICA!!!!....
LOVE,
Nick
...only 3 and a half more hours....and we are out for the summer!!! yes!!!! well after school im going swimming with victoria...soo i wont be back untill like 4:30...so leave comments..and ill update later...i wont update untill i have atleast 10 sense yesterday i had 7!
<3 *jess* |
